Conversation with the Keeper

First off, a confession. I knew about Jeff's... condition before Cheska's post yesterday.

But I didn't know what to do.

I'm sorry I didn't tell you, Cheska...

    Jean: Hey Jeff. You seem a bit weird on your blog-- what's wrong?

 Jeff: I...I don't know, Jean.

  It's just...Fizzy.

She's gone...and I couldn't do a damn thing to save her.

 Jean: Jeff, I don't think I can--

  I mean, I know that...

Christ, I couldn't do anything either, but I can't talk about that...

 Jeff: Jean, you were there... And she fought...and... I miss her.

  I hate losing my friends like this.

  Everything good I've done, and I could barely save anyone.

Jean: We've got to keep going.

  Just-- ignore the hurt.

  It's not healthy, but we have to keep going..

 Jeff: I know... but...It's been hard staying strong for everyone.

  I took charge because I knew someone had to.

I started the Initiative and the Alliance to prevent anymore deaths

  To find a way to kill it.

 Jean: Yeah... I've done some reading on that...

  But the initiative-- what are you going to do about that now?

  It needs organization.

 Jeff: I'm gathering lists

battle tactics

  people

  The Keeper Alliance has their tasks

  and now it's time to implement them into the Initiative

 Jean: You know people are naming themselves again...

  I don't want what happened to Robert and Zero to...

Jeff: It won't.

 Jean: Well...

 Jeff: People know.

  They understand why.

 Jean: How easy it is for man to ignore the lessons of history...

  Jeff.

  I worry about you..

 Jeff: Don't.

  I'm fine.

 I'm always fine.

 Jean: But the whole... you know...

 Jeff: What I'm worried about is all of you.

 Jean: I'm fine too.

 Jeff: I know...

 Jean: As fine as you are.

 Jeff: I'm killing myself every minute I stay up planning?

Jean: I'm killing myself making sacrifices it's not my right to make?

  Jeff, please.

 Jeff: This is my responsibility now, Jean.

  I survived the fight.

 Jean: So did I.

 Jeff: I want to be here to help the others.

 Jean: So do I!

  But you don't have to do... all of this to help.

 You're making yourself a major target.

 Jeff: I was a target the minute I saved Cheska.

  I was a target the minute I started the blog.

  I was a target the minute I read that thing's name on Unfiction.

  I know my fate.

 Jean: But after Zero's death... He's angry, Jeff. He wants revenge. It's not a matter of death...

 Jeff: Let him have me.

it's a worthy sacrifice.

  For my friends.

 Jean: Worthy sacrifice?

  What kind of talk is that?

  If you're gone, who will organize us?

  Who will keep for us?

  Well?

 Jeff: Scott, Alora, and Ava.

 I'm setting them up for the eventual takeover of the Keeper Alliance

 Jean: But Jeff, they--

  They don't know about... They're "young".

  I like them all.

  But it's dangerous.

  For them, and for you.

 Jeff: Of course It's dangerous.

 It's always been dangerous.

  But I have to repay for my sins.

  For what I've done and failed to do.

 Jean: ...

  What sins, Jeff?

 You're as good a person as I know.

 Jeff: I couldn't save Nessa.

  I left the blog like a coward and ran.

  If I stayed, I could have done something.

 Jean: She wanted you to!

  She wanted you to live!

 Jeff: At what cost?

  I became Hallowed anyway.

  I became what I once hated.

 Jean: Jeff...

 What about Cheska?

 Jeff: I love Cheska.

  She was too human anyway.

  She was never really a Hallowed.

  She just needed the right push

 Jean: Same with you?

  She loves you, Jeff.

 Jeff: I know.

 Jean: Do you understand what killing yourself would do to her?

  To me?

  To everyone?

 Jeff: I'd sacrifice myself a thousand times to save all of you.

 Jean: Do you want me to put this logically?

  You're worth more alive than dead.

  Please, Jeff.

  I don't know what you're going to do.

  But you're getting reckless.

 Jeff: Reckless, Jean?

How am I reckless?

 Jean: Ava... she's smart, but she puts herself and her mother at risk all the time.

  Scott hasn't seen our Gentleman himself.

  Alora... doesn't deserve to have this much pushed onto her shoulders.

 If you want to help them.

  You have to live.

  "Let us keep living".

  Don't you remember what Nessa said?

  "Love. Light. Life."

 Jeff: Please, Jean. Don't... Don't remind me of her.

 I knew what she wanted for us.

  But...I'm getting everyone ready.

  You don't know how far I've gotten.

  I'm too dangerous.

  I'm bound to go any day now.

  But before I do, I'll get everyone ready.

 Jean: What about the cure?

  Can't you save yourself?

  You did so many others...

 Jeff: Jean, let me tell you a secret.

  Something that Cheska doesn't know.

  Something I couldn't bear to tell her.

 Jean: What?

 Jeff: The cure didn't work on me.

 Jean: What?

 Jeff: I'm still a Revenant

 Jean: Jeff, what the hell.

 Jeff: I'm sorry I never told you.

 Jean: What-- why didn't it work?

 Jeff: I don't know.

  Something about the way the Revenant status works makes it ineffective.

Jean: Maybe it's because you weren't under control?

 Jeff: Nope.

 Jean: Because you're still so human?

 Jeff: I don't know that answer.

  The best it can do for me is suppress the symptoms.

 I'm as human as I can be.

  But I can still sense Slendy.

 Jean: Does that mean what I think it does?

 Jeff: He can track me too.

 Jean: How long do you think you have?

 Jeff: Dunno, I've gone on for so long.

  I don't think I'll make it past February,

  He's pissed. I'm still resisting.

 Jean: You're going to be lost too...

 Jeff: Not if I can help it.

 Jean: Jeff. When you die, he takes your mind. You go to another place...

 Jeff: He's never going to get me.

  My body, soul, and love belong to Cheska.

 The funny thing is, I think she already knows somehow.

 Jean: Are you going to make her-?

 Jeff: No

 I'm going out to find him directly.

  And I'm going down fighting.

 Jean: Jeff, please don't-

  You don't understand.

 Jeff: Do I?

 Jean: You can't, or you wouldn't go out to fight him.

  Please, Jeff. I'm so scared.

  He's already got Fizz and Benny, and Zero, and so many others...

 Jeff: I'm staying as long as I can.

  I promise I won't leave yet.

 But when it's my time, it's my time.

 Jean: I can't talk you out of it, can I?

 Jeff: No, you can't my dear Brit.

 I love you Jean, you brave, strong girl. You're like a sister to me.

  But I need to do my part for the bloggers.

  I owe Zero that much.

 Jean: You know, there's practically nobody left.

 Those who are left have changed.

 Jeff: It's you and me, and I feel guilty for leaving you.

  But it's too dangerous for you to be around me.

  I don't want anyone else to get hurt.

  Thanks to me, we almost lost Vivi in New Zealand.

 Jean: That wasn't your fault!

  He's been stalking them too.

 Jeff: Wasn't It?

  I was there.

  And it happened.

 Jean: Jeff, please, you don't have to take the weight of the world on your shoulders.

 Jeff: Who's going to then?

  I'm one of the last people left.

  Someone needs to stay behind.

  You need to take care of Kim.

  She needs you.

  I hope...Cheska will understand.

 Because the minute he has a hold of me, I'm going to be an enemy.

  But in that minute, I'll inflict as much damage as i can before I go.

 Jean: I'm sorry Jeff.

 Jeff: Why are you sorry?

  You don't need to apologize.

 Jean: I didn't talk you out of any of this.

 Jeff: You couldn't if you tried.

  I know my plan.

 As for you. Well, I'm here as long as you need me.

 Jean: Same here, Jeff.

  I should go.

  Kim is screaming again.

 Jeff: Go ahead.

  But know this much.

  I'm doing this to save you guys.

Because of everything you've done for me.

 Jean: I haven't done enough for you, Jeff.

  Thank you.

 Jeff: You've done as much as you can.

  Even if you don't think so.

  I'll be okay.

 The only guilt I have left in this world is knowing that the woman I love will lose the second love of her life to this thing.

So... Fuck, guys, I need help. Jeff can't do this...

My camera is out of batteries. I'll charge it, and get the photos of the stuff I found up ASAP.